So, due to circumstances beyond my control, engineering and I are parting ways. Dealing with my father's death was not conducive to doing crazy amounts of studying. My heart and mind are not in it.
I would be able to try again in September if I wished, but I'm not sure it's worth it. I haven't paid proper attention to Karen since September started, and I have dumped the gym. All I have time for is studying and that isn't how I want to live my life. My circumstances have slightly biased my perspective, but after some deep thorough reflection, I am aiming towards another goal.
It turns out that I was accepted into the Honours Computing Science program at U of A for Fall 2013. Given my circumstances (and some persuasion), ualberta has agreed to let me start studying 'puters in January. If I take a couple of courses this summer, I will have lost no time at all and will be in second year in September. This is awesome news.
If my dad hadn't died, I would've worked myself stupid and gotten through, but the truth is that I was hating my classes and the workload. My dad may have done me a favour by making me really think about what I was doing and why I was doing it. I wanted engineering because it was hard, not because I loved what engineers do. In fact, most engineers I have worked with suffered under massive stress and stupid workloads.
So, onwards to thinking in binary. Time to dust off my coding skills and get to work. I know that I've grown up a lot because I didn't fall after my dad died. I just rolled through the fall and got back to my feet.
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